a thankful holiday (and grateful blogger)

posted by the scholar on November 26th, 2008
filed under: flotsam & jetsam

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Brother Sun by nikaa

Okay, we all know that Thanksgiving is around the corner and we have a lot to be thankful for, right? I personally have tons to be thankful for this year, frankly every year, but especially this year. I have said to a few people just this week that for the last several years I have been in varying states of depression, ranging from mild to debilitating. Unless you read my about page you might not know this. I never talked about it out loud that much, but you probably didn’t have to hear it to know, you could probably tell my the look on my face how bad it was at any given moment. My kind was that terrible feeling of being overwhelmed and filled with anxiety, to the point of being paralyzed to act on anything. It always manifested itself in the worst way right at the beginning of each previous holiday season too, but this year is different. Now, lately and right now as I write this, I feel like I am finally coming into the light after a really long time. Consistently. Everyday. Not just a good day or two here and there and then back into the dumper. Progress. I feel better about myself in new and different ways. And I suspect that, among other things, it is from the creative things that I decided to take up, like pecking around the internet and writing about what I find (writer’s block notwithstanding), and snapping my photos of odd alluring things.

These simple but pleasurable tasks have created some powerful momentum for me, so I am giving thanks to all of you who come to visit me here. You have influenced my progress. You gently push me along my path, you encourage me and make me think, you make me laugh out loud with your comments and emails and have provided me with steam and movement and courage to dig deep and wonder what I might be capable of doing from a creative or artistic point of view. I am encouraged to let my mind go. Since I am a bit of a control freak that last part is the biggest challenge for me but I remain undaunted because deep down inside I know the best creative bits that have not yet showed themselves to me will rise to the surface. In the meantime the interaction I have going with you helps me to get there in not-so-mysterious ways.

I’ve enjoyed myself during my time off. I totally needed it, especially this week, because we are doing a rogue Thanksgiving dinner today instead of Thursday and I am doing the cooking! I come from a long line of rogues and am proud of my heritage. 🙂 Anyway, I’m still slightly blocked but my outlook is positive and I’ll be back in full force after the holiday with lots of new fresh and inventive things to show you. I will also be covering the One of a Kind Show here in Chicago at the end of next week. I can’t wait! Believe you me there will lots of eye-popping goodness over there: 500 vendors with their high quality handmade goods, and an additional gallery section with larger scale works. I’ll be showing you the best of the best. Till then, I wish a lovely holiday to my friends in the states and a nice rest of the week to my friends across the globe!


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5 Responses to “a thankful holiday (and grateful blogger)”

  1. Brian Says:

    Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours, Gigi.

    Thanks for all the wonderful things you share with us every day.

  2. La Trollette Says:

    Very happy Thanksgiving Gigi!
    I thank the internet to give us the opportunity of meeting, even “virtualy”.
    Take care :o)

  3. Beth Younger Says:

    Thank you so much for sharing your struggles with us and the world. I too have suffered with anxiety and depression, and also have come through the process. It feels at times as if it wil never end, but I know that this too shall pass. Thanks for all you do.

  4. fru Says:

    Happy Thanksgiving Gigi!

  5. the scholar Says:

    thank YOU everybody for your support always. 🙂

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